Horoscope of Jupiter in Scorpio: Occult Guru or Halloween on Steroids

Hello!

This is my take on the upcoming transit of Jupiter in Scorpio.

In this video, I am going to explain what to expect out of Jupiter whilst he is in Scorpio.
As a society and as individuals.
And how to go about it.
I will explain how Jupiter can become either an Occult Guru or a Halloween on Steroids and all shades in between.
So just grab a cup of something and let’s start rolling.
Jupiter enters Scorpio on the 10-10-2017 15:20 CED
Up to 8-11-2018.

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Taurus Full Moon and The King of Coins/ La Luna Piena in Toro e il Re dei Denari

Yesterday, whilst having my daily exercise routine I found this Piacentine card figuring the King of Coins. I placed it in my pocket and kept on walking musing on its significance.

Today whilst meditating, as the Full Moon in Taurus was culminating, I finally understood the meaning for me, but perhaps it is also a more general meaning of this Tauren Full Moon.

Taurus is fixed Earth. It is Gaia that sustains us. It is our senses and how we perceive life through our bodies. It is patience with ourselves and all Creatures of Earth. For growth needs its time.

The Moon and the Sun oppose each other from the 2nd and 8th house respectively in the chart for my location. 

Fixed Earth balancing Fixed Water on the axis of growth. Practical productivity versus emotional sensitivity.

The Taurus Moon is saying to Sun in Scorpio:

I have seen your pain and your fears. I have seen the limits of your comfort zones breaking. I have seen what we can achieve together and intimacy and shared resources is the key. 

I know what lies beyond the veil…and how to delve in human’s worst nightmares.

But all I ask of you is to come back to me, to your body, to your own point of stillness, to the container of your soul.

Because you must first learn to nurture yourself before you are able to share.

Because you must first learn to know your body and your emotions before you can share them with others.

Because you must first master patiently your skills before you can create joint ventures.

You must first remember that you are child of the Earth and the Water of Emotions are the catalyst for your growth.

And with that, the Moon smiles and nods to Pluto, the Lord of Transformation and of the UnderWorld, who is a silent hidden force behind this lunation.

Ieri, durante la mia passeggiata di salute, trovo questa carta Piacentina, con sopra la figura del Re dei Denari. Lo messa in tasca e ho continuato a camminare pesando a cosa mi voleva dire.

Oggi durante la mia meditazione sulla Luna Piena in Toro, ho finalmente capito il messaggio di quella carta, che può essere anche il messaggio general di questa energia Taurina.

Toro è Terra in modalità fissa. E’ Gaia che ci culla. E’ i nostri sensi e come percepiamo la nostra vita attraverso i nostri corpi.

E’ la pazienza con noi stessi e tutte le altre Creature della Terra. Perché la crescita ha bisogno del suo tempo.

La Luna e il Sole si guardano dalla seconda e l’ottava casa rispettivamente dal luogo in cui sto. L’elemento Terra Fissa che bilancia l’elemento Acqua in modalità Fissa sull’asse della crescita Toro-Scorpione. La produttività pratica verso la sensitività emozionale.

La Luna in Toro sta dicendo al Sole in Scorpione:

Ho visto il tuo dolore e le tue paure. Ho visto i limiti della tua sopportazione rompersi. Ho visto cosa possiamo ottenere insieme e l’intimità e le risorse condivisi sono le chiavi d’accesso.

So cosa c’è oltre quel velo…e come immergermi negli incubi più macabri della razza umana.

Ma quello che ti chiedo ora e di tornare da me, al tuo corpo, al tuo punto fermo del tuo essere, al contenitore della tua anima.

Perché prima devi imparare a nutrire te stessa prima di potere condividere.

Perché prima devi imparare a conoscere il tuo corpo e le tue emozioni prima che li puoi condividere con gli altri.

Perché prima devi diventare maestro delle tue doti ed arti prima di creare una società di risorse condivise.

Perché prima devi ricordarti che sei figlio/figlia della Terra e l’Acqua delle Emozioni è il catalizzatore della tua crescita.

E con ciò, la Luna sorride serenamente e inclina il capo vero Plutone, il Signore della Trasformazione e degli Inferi che fa da spalla nascosta a questa lunazione.

On Death and Rebirth/ Morte e Rinascita

Saturn in Scorpio has been a very long painful journey but we are used to Saturn, the stern teacher that shakes his head and says No.

But Mars, who would have imagined that Mars in Scorpio would have been just as painful on both a personal and collective level.

We are seeing violence, shooting and killings everywhere. Intolerance and hate has become our daily bread….

Amongst the many discussions I had been through these days, Mars is always associated with war and aggressiveness. But we tend to forget that Mars is our own fundamental assertiveness. It is the energy that comes out of our 1st and 2nd chakra. It is our personal desire. It is our Kundalini.

Mars is sex and by sex I mean our own individual sexual nature that defines us as human beings. When we repress our true sexual nature, feelings and drives for many reasons whatsoever, then that assertiveness finds other ways to be expressed…and that means rape, violence on women, LGBTQ communities, minorities or anyone we deem that somehow they represent a menace to our own identity. It can be words of hatred or emotional black mail.

Mars is fire and without fire we die. It is our own force that helps us become individuals and take personal action in the name of the individuality.

When Mars is fully owned in a balanced way, it is what makes you go through the world and leave gracefully your mark as an individual living on this planet.

Mars will be leaving Scorpio tomorrow, 2nd August 2016 at 19:40 CED and enters Sagittarius shortly before the New Moon in Leo at 22:45 CED…but that is another story.

For now, perhaps, aided with this balsamic phase of the Moon, I will slowly and painfully say goodbye and thank you to those issues and bits of me that have left or died in the wake of this Mars in Scorpio. 
It has been a long long journey of death… and rebirth.

Versione Italiana:

Saturno in Scorpione è stato un viaggio lungo e doloroso ma si sa Saturno è l’insegnante che scuote la testa e dice No.

Ma Marte…chi avrebbe mai detto che Marte in Scorpione poteva essere così doloroso sia a livello personale e collettivo.

Siamo assistendo a violenza, sparatorie e omicidi ovunque. L’intolleranze e l’odio è diventato il nostro pane quotidiano. 

Nei miei molti scambi di idee che ho avuto in questi giorni, ho notato che Marte viene sempre associato con la guerra e l’aggressione. Ma ci dimentichiamo che Marte è anche la nostra assertività che ci individua. E’ l’energia che esce dal primo ed il secondo chakra.  E’ il nostro desiderio personale. E' il nostro Kundalini.

Marte è sesso e per sesso intendo anche la nostra personale ed individuale natura sessuale che ci definisce come essere umani. Quando per qualsiasi ragione, sopprimiamo la nostra vera natura sessuale, emozionale e forza di andare avanti, questa naturale assertività verrà espressa in altri modi….tipo stupri, violenza sulla donne, su persone della comunità LGBTQ, popolazioni ed individui che fanno parte della minoranza o su qualsiasi persona che in qualche modo minaccia la nostra identità.

Marte è fuoco, senza fuoco si muore. E’ la nostra forza, creatività che ci aiuta a diventare degli individui e prendere azioni in nome di quella individualità. 

Quando siamo in possesso equilibrato del nostro Marte, esso farà modo di farci andare con fiducia nel mondo e lasciare un importa su questo pianeta con determinazione e grazia.

Marte lascerà Scorpione domani 2 di Agosto 2016, alle 19:49 CED per entrare in Sagittario poco prima della Luna nuova di Leone alle 22:45 CED… ma quella è un altra storia.

Usero l’energia della Luna Balsamica per dire addio e grazie a tutto ciò che ho perso durante questo transito di Marte in Scorpione, incluse parti di me.

E’ stato un lunghissimo viaggio di morte….e di rinascita.

Lascia Divino che io mi fidi dei miei più profondi istinti e sapendo in tutti i modi, che anche quando le cose non so chiare: Che posso la mia intuizione sacra essere guida del mio cammino. Tosha Silver.

Dear Mars Retrograde in Scorpio and ex-Lovers

When I received the message from N, about a month ago, I knew in my heart that something serious was going on. N is someone I deeply loved some 16 years ago.

When I left Malta 20 years ago, I was running away from a part of me that took me years to only start accepting. 

I was so in self-denial that I thought that by simply running away from my native land, stick to a heterosexual relationship and get married I would banish old ghosts and wounds.

N had to be my witness to that wedding that was going to take place in late April 2000. A wedding that never happened because I fell in love with my witness, that happened to be a woman.

It was an intense, deeply felt love that I simply got swept by….and for that love I left what was to me at that time, known, certain and secure, to face something utterly unconventional and despised by many and by both of our families. 

I had no long term job and passed many nights worrying on how I was going to feed myself. I changed many houses at the time. Sometimes I even slept in N’s shop because I had nowhere to go. All because I loved her and wanted to be true to myself and to that love…even if I had no idea who that myself was.

We did many things together. We tried to snatch time from a world that did not acknowledge the us. In those brief moments of sincere love we did touch each others soul.

It could have been a match on earth and in heaven but we both had a problem. We were both in self-denial of who we really were….We were both fully carrying the stigma and judgement that our families and society has handed us and we fully had taken it on board.

We tried to hide it from all the world and probably we finished by hiding it from ourselves as well.

At a certain point N decided she couldn’t take it anymore and she decided to abide to her family laws. I still remember that very moment when I had put her in front of a choice “If you choose your family over me I will leave you”.

And so I did….

It took me another 4 years of therapy to arrive to a point of saying to myself “Yes I am a homosexual…and it is not going away”.

It took me another 2 years to eventually let myself fall in love again…this time I knew what I was doing and why I was doing it…perhaps….

Today I met N. 

She is dying. Her organs are shutting down. One day or another she will probably leave this plane. Doctors haven’t given her much hope and time. She is selling her business that I was present when she started.

And she came to tell me so.

We talked about things done and memories shared. Many I had removed…

At a certain point I asked her to forgive me for the pain I caused her in leaving her. I said that although I loved her a lot I couldn’t stay in that situation anymore. It was a question of self-respect.

She said, “I know, I cared for you a lot and I got angry with you because you disappeared from my life. You didn’t even want my friendship”.

I said, “For years I did not want you as a friend. I wanted you as a lover. I didn’t care for you, I loved you and it took me time to get over it.”

She told me “ You will always remain for me my Maltese Goat. And next time we will meet again in another lifetime I shall remind you.”

That is the nearest she could arrive in this lifetime to tell me how much she cared for me. She never ever said I love you, yet I felt that love.

As I could feel her pain, a conflicting pain that she has always carried in her since I met her but could never do anything about it.

I could work on my pain and only the Universe knows how much I am still working on mine but I can’t work on hers.

We said goodbye fully knowing it might be our last in this lifetime…

So dearest N, in memory of that love, that made me grow into the woman I am now, this is my prayer for you:

I am sorry.

Please forgive me.

I love you.

Thank you.

Safe travels…

Your Maltese Goat.

The ring on the left is a reproduction of 13th century English ring carrying a garnet and a Chaucer's phrase saying " Go little ring to that same sweet heart that hath my hearth in her domain". The ring on the right is a beautiful Aquamarine. Both rings were given to me by N during our time together.

Scorpionic Delirium

Last night I meet my physical limits.

I danced with my own madness,

And the rawness of unexpected, unexpressed, 

explosive, visceral fear.

I walked blindly the valley of Scorpio

Where life and death passionately mingle.

I tasted cold pungent sweat,

And repeated uncontrolled violent retching,

Coming from life's abyssal dark core:

Anger, fear, abuse and transformation.

I succumbed to delirium,

My thoughts scattered,

Yet narrating intimate emotions,

Hardly aired in a lifetime.

My movements,

Violent, haphazard.

As if bitten by a tarantula,

In a scary hypnotic trance.

My teeth clenched,

As if trying  to hold on to something,

Quickly escaping away.

Whilst profound, continuous moans, 

Accompanied chattering teeth,

Sensing the liberating cold lucidity of death,

Just beyond that thin line, 

I was quickly approaching.

Quick shallow breath, 

kept the beat of a crescendo,

Dry tongue tasted acid,

Parched lips alternated foul language & devoted prayer.

I had an option to escape,

But dared to trespass and walk the path.

For this time, 

I managed to emerge sanely to the other side,

And live to tell the tale