Saturday, 23 July 2016

On Mess and Healing / Il Caos e la Via della Guarigione

Sometimes we just know that we have to look at the mess and go through it. There is nothing else we can do. Going back is just a question of suppression and of fermentation. Things will come back sooner or later, usually with more vigour. 

We all have our own expertise, our own brand of mess. We know it. Having the courage to look at it is already the start of a healing journey.

What is happening in the world is just a huge reflection of what is going on in each one of us. The world is going through a deep mess. A mess that has been festering and fermenting for long decades and centuries. Not just looking at it but also owning it is a start.

The world has its own healing journey that is made by each of our own single healing journeys.  

Neptune, the great dissolver and Chiron, the great healer, in the sign of Pisces, the healer of emotional and psychic level have been at it for a long time and will still be going on for a long time.

Pluto, the great transformer, in Capricorn, the master of the pragmatic functioning whole, has been slowly, surely and dramatically changing the world we live in.

Saturn, the great teacher, in Sagittarius the seeker and teacher of the truth, is having us to face dogmas, religions and philosophies that have thwarted with our natural identity.

Uranus, the shatterer of limits, in Aries, the pursuer of independence and freedom for one’s own identity, has been giving us a push to assert ourselves in our own personal identity and dignity.

Embarking on a healing journey is never easy. It needs a good dose of courage. We will get hurt and sometimes we can’t avoid that others will get hurt too.

But I personally think we owe it to ourselves and to all the world. What we heal inside ourselves will have a direct effect on the world because we are all connected.

As above so below, as within so without, as the Universe so the Soul.

Versione Italiana

Alcune delle volte sappiamo che non possiamo fare altro che guardare il caos in cui stiamo e passarci in mezzo. Andare in dietro è solo una questione di soppressione e fermentazione. Le cose soppresse normalmente tornano ed anche con rinnovato vigore.

Ognuno di noi ha il suo particolare marchio di caos. Lo sappiamo benissimo. Avere il coraggio di guardarlo è già un buon inizio sulla strada della guarigione.

Cosa succede nel mondo è solo una grande riflessione di quello che sta accadendo dentro ognuno di noi. Il mondo sta passando attraverso un gran bel caos. Un caos che si è putrefatto e fermentato per decenni e secoli. Non solo guardare il mondo, ma essere consapevoli di cosa sta succedendo, è un inizio.

Il mondo ha il suo percorso di guarigione, fatto dalla somma ed interazione di ognuna delle nostre storie di guarigione.

Nettuno, il grande dissolutore e Kirone, il grande guaritore, nel segno dei Pesci, il guaritore a livello emozionale e psichico, stanno chiamando tutti, da un bel pò, alla via della guarigione. 

Plutone, il grande trasformatore, in Capricorno, il maestro del mondo funzionale e pragmatico, sta lentamente ma permanentemente e drammaticamente cambiando il mondo in cui viviamo.

Saturno, il grande insegnate, in Sagittario, il cercatore ed insegnante della verità, ci sta facendo guardare in faccia i dogmi, le religioni e filosofie che per secoli hanno storpiato la nostra naturale identità.

Urano, il distruttore dei limiti, nel segno dell’ Ariete, l’inseguitore dell’indipendenza e la libertà per la personale identità, ci sta dando una mano per alzarci come individui e riprendere la nostra identità e dignità.

Iniziare un percorso di guarigione non è sempre facile. C’è bisogno di una grande dose di coraggio. Ci faremo del male e molte delle volte non riusciremo ad evitare di fare del male agli altri.

Ma io personalmente credo che prendere la responsabilità di guardarci dentro e cominciare la guarigione è un dovere prima di tutto verso di noi e verso tutto il mondo. Cosa noi guariamo dentro di noi avrà un effetto diretto sul mondo intero perché siamo tutti connessi.

Come sopra sotto, come dentro fuori, come l’Universo così l’Anima.


 Bisogna avere il caos dentro la vostra anima per fare nascere una stella danzante. Freidrich Nietzsche

Tuesday, 19 July 2016

Full Moon in Capricorn: When security comes from within / Luna Piena in Capricorno: Quando la sicurezza viene da dentro di noi

Sometimes we get an overwhelming sense of unease. Of feeling unprotected, exposed and raw, to a world that it seems has gone brutally mad.
Lately, this sometimes, has unfortunately become a daily happening. And with this coming full Moon in Capricorn, later tonight (00:57 20 July 2016 CET) these feelings may be easily triggered and escalate.
Cancer-Capricorn axis is the security axis of the Zodiac. 
Cancer, a water element, finds its security in emotions, in having a family, a clan to go to and feel safe. Cancer is the home sweet home, my castle, my fortress.
Capricorn, earth element, is the security through accomplishments in the world, the empire-builder that through nothing and a lot of discipline creates what surrounds us. A little goes a long way.
It is the receptive versus pragmatic. It is the emotional versus the practical.
It is water versus earth. It is the nostalgic past versus the goal we want to achieve.
It is being emotionally receptive yet aware of our healthy boundaries. 
It is being there for others yet aware of our own dignity.
It is ultimately the dance of feeling safe in the world we walk on. 
It is mindfully walking with backs straight and centred axis, whilst tapping in the Earth’s reliable energy whilst holding space for the nurturing Universal Energy to unfold through us.

The following is Tohi Mohi Mohi Tohi Mantra. I found it very soothing, reminding me that all is connected and we are always connected to that loving Universal Energy that sustains us. We just need to stop, breath and reach within, so to be able to reach out to the stars.

Blessed Capricorn Full Moon

Versione Italiana

Alcune delle volte ci sentiamo sopraffatti da un onda immense di irrequietezza. Di sentirsi non protetti, esposti, nudi e crudi al mondo che ci sembra impazzito.
Ultimamente, queste “alcune volte” stanno diventando un evento di tutti i giorno.
Con la Luna piena in Capricorn, più tardi stanotte (00:57 20 di Luglio 2016 CET), queste emozioni possono essere facilmente espostiti e diventare insopportabili.
L’asse Cancro-Capricorno nello Zodiaco rappresenta la sicurezza.
Cancro l’elemento acqua, trova la sua sicurezza nelle emozioni, nella famiglia, nel clan a cui appartiene e dove si sente sicuro. Cancro è casa dolce casa, il mio castello, la mia fortezza.
Capricorno, elemento terra, è la sicurezza attraverso il raggiungimento di successo nel mondo, il costruttore degli imperi che da niente e molta disciplina crea tutto ciò che ci circonda. Capricorno con poco va lontano.
Questa Luna piena è il dilemma fra il essere ricettivo ed essere pragmatico.  L’emozioni verso la praticità.
E’ l’acqua verso la terra. E’ il passato nostalgico verso l’obiettivo che vogliamo raggiungere.
E il essere emozionalmente ricettivi ed aperti al mondo ma nel frattempo essere consapevoli dei nostri salutari confini.
E’ il essere li per gli altri ma anche consapevoli della nostra dignità.
Alla fine dei conti è la danza di sentirsi sicuri nel mondo in cui camminiamo.
E’ il essere presenti in se stessi, camminando con una schiena dritta e con il baricentro in asse. E’ il sentire attraverso le gambe l’energia della Terra che ci sostiene e nello stesso momento creare e tenere lo spazio alla Energia Universale che ci nutre a manifestarsi attraverso di noi.

Qui sotto c’è il link per il Mantra Tohi Mohi Mohi Tohi. Largamente tradotto è “Tu sei Me ed Io sono Te. Quale è la differenza fra di noi?”

Mi ricorda che tutto è connesso e siamo sempre connessi a quella Energia che ci nutre. Dobbiamo solo avere cura di fermarci, respirare and andare prima dentro di noi per potere poi andare al di fuori di noi e raggiungere le stelle.

Buona Luna In Capricorno



Friday, 15 July 2016

Mars/Uranus Quincunx, Nice Attack & My Prayer


Yesterday we had (still having) a Mars/Uranus quincunx. With Uranus slowly down to go retrograde later in the month and Mars moving slowly direct after his own retrograde. This makes a fairly fast aspect to become a very slow moving blazing laser.

Just imagine having a determined warrior that has conquered his/her fears trying to manage an open live electrical wire. Easy? Just imagine the warrior has to do it through the rear window of a car whilst driving full speed whilst dogging obstacles. Get the idea?
This energy in the present conformation increases the Air energy on a hot humid substrate. Which means sudden weather changes like storms, intestinal colics, ovary colics, sore throats, extreme anxiety, panic attacks, shocks, terror, paralysis...

As the Nice attack started the Moon (our body, in this case Earth's body) was nearing its conjunction to Mars bringing that chaotic, highly mobile energy imparted by Uranus on to the Earth. There was even a storm going on (the manifestation of excess electricity as shown by the BBC News photo). France was celebrating its Liberty. A value so dear to the Air Element.

My heart goes to all those that have lost their lives. To those who have survived with terror in their eyes that will never go away. And to us all. 

It might seem ridiculous just now but please do not forget to breath slowly and profoundly. Drink a lot of water. Water lowers down the lightness of air. So drinking diminishes anxiety, lowers dryness, prevents colics, sore throat and especially sudden abrupt loss of control... And if you can, walk bare footed. It will diminish the static electrical energy that is in the air just now and root you to the Earth.

Stay safe.

Versione Italiana:
Ieri c'è stata il picco della in-congiunzione fra Marte ed Urano. Con Urano che sta lentamente fermando per andare retrogrado alla fine di questo mese e Marte che si sta muovendo lentamente per andare diretto dopo il suo periodo retrogrado. Questo fa si che un aspetto che di solito è abbastanza veloce diventare un laser che si sta muovendo molto lentamente.

Immaginate di avere un guerriero determinato che ha conquistato le sue paure e sta provando a controllare, senza farsi del male, un filo elettrico vivo. Facile? Allora pensata che questo guerriero deve fare tutto ciò attraverso lo specchio retrovisore e nel frattempo continuare a guidare a piena velocità in una strada piena di ostacoli. Vi rende l'idea?

Questa energia nella presente conformazione aumenta l'elemento Aria su un substrato caldo ed umido. Questo vuole dire improvvisi cambi di meteo che portano tempeste anche violente, coliche intestinali, mal di gola, spasmi alle ovaia, mal di gola, ansietà estrema, shock, terrore, paralisi...

Nel momento che gli attacco di Nizza stava cominciando, la Luna (il nostro corpo, in questo caso il Corpo della Terra) stava arrivando ad un congiunzione con Marte. Questo fa si che quella energia altamente mobile impartita da Urano scendesse sulla Terra. C'era anche una tempesta in atto come si vede dalla foto pubblica su BBC News. Francia stava celebrando il suo giorno della Liberazione. Un valore molto importante per l'elemento Aria.

Il mio cuore va a tutti coloro che hanno perso la loro vita. A tutti quelli che sono sopravvissuti con il terrore negli loro occhi, che non andrà mai via. Ed a tutti noi.
Sembra ridicolo, ma per favore, in questo momento, non vi dimenticate di respirare lentamente e profondamente. Bevete molta acqua. L'acqua abbassa la leggerezza dell'aria. Per cui bevendo diminuisce l'ansietà, la secchezza, prevenendo coliche, mal di gola e sopratutto atti improvvisi senza controllo...E se potete camminate a piedi nudi. Questo fa si di diminuire l'energia statica che c'è nell'aria che si accumula su i nostri corpi e vi radica alla Terra.

Ricordate di respirare...

Photo AFP/GETTY Images of Nice Fireworks taking place yesterday as published on BBC News


Tuesday, 5 July 2016

Venus Return, South Node and New Facebook Business Page

Today I took the plunge and opened my new Facebook Business Page.

You may ask why today of all days.

I have been waiting for the right day but with all these retrogrades left right and centre it seems there is no good time really. But I had to start from somewhere, Mars is moving slowly forward…

It was only then that my astrology lightbulb lit….I was going to have my Venus Return just within less than 24 hours from the New Moon in Cancer. And I said, “Oh wow!”.

Venus for me, as in my natal chart, has a special role. It is not only my only classical planet in water but it also happens to be conjunct my South Node. It also forms a T-square with Chiron and Uranus. My Moon and Venus are in mutual reception. So as you can imagine, Venus has a lot to say in my life.

Lately I have been monitoring closely when Venus gets triggered….she has a lot to say on my health too.

In this lifetime, Venus has taken me on a long journey of self-discovery. She is a hub for lessons to learn.

In Equal house system my Venus and SN are in the 5th house, my Re-Creation but Cancer rules my 6th house, my work as a service to others…

So for me, today it felt it was just the perfect timing to honour myself, my creativity, my skills and my new profession as an astrologer and medical astrologer…I am not saying this light-heartedly. I feel a bit overwhelmed and hugely responsabile but a long journey needs to start from just one step.

And I am here today because of all those small steps that I have already done, each day, during all my lifetime. 

Many of those steps, like this one, have been made in utter blindfolded faith.

Why the title “As the Universe so the Soul”?

Many of you are probably familiar with the phrase, “as above so below”.
But the whole of it is:
"As above, so below, as within, so without, as the universe so the soul” attributed to Hermes Trismegistus.

I have been always a Pagan Animist at heart. For me the phrase “as the universe so the soul” is exactly how I feel that astrology works. Not only astrology but all of holistic medicine. We are one with the Universe. We are one with all that surrounds as. All is living. All vibrates. All is connected. 

We are all connected.

We might not see it but if we become still enough we can hear all of the Universe vibrating, echoing the initial sound of creation.

As the universe so the soul reminds me of a life continuum. That even when I, as Acquafortis die, my true essence will still go on living.

Put it in another way that phrase is my spiritual anchor that aligns me to my soul’s vibrational intent.

And to it I am holding, vibrating, as I plunge myself in this whole new adventure….

May I be worthy of it.


So Mote It Be!


This is my Facebook Business Page. Click here for the link.

Monday, 30 May 2016

Dear Mars Retrograde in Scorpio and ex-Lovers

When I received the message from N, about a month ago, I knew in my heart that something serious was going on. N is someone I deeply loved some 16 years ago.
When I left Malta 20 years ago, I was running away from a part of me that took me years to only start accepting. 
I was so in self-denial that I thought that by simply running away from my native land, stick to a heterosexual relationship and get married I would banish old ghosts and wounds.
N had to be my witness to that wedding that was going to take place in late April 2000. A wedding that never happened because I fell in love with my witness, that happened to be a woman.
It was an intense, deeply felt love that I simply got swept by….and for that love I left what was to me at that time, known, certain and secure, to face something utterly unconventional and despised by many and by both of our families. 
I had no long term job and passed many nights worrying on how I was going to feed myself. I changed many houses at the time. Sometimes I even slept in N’s shop because I had nowhere to go. All because I loved her and wanted to be true to myself and to that love…even if I had no idea who that myself was.
We did many things together. We tried to snatch time from a world that did not acknowledge the us. In those brief moments of sincere love we did touch each others soul.
It could have been a match on earth and in heaven but we both had a problem. We were both in self-denial of who we really were….We were both fully carrying the stigma and judgement that our families and society has handed us and we fully had taken it on board.
We tried to hide it from all the world and probably we finished by hiding it from ourselves as well.
At a certain point N decided she couldn’t take it anymore and she decided to abide to her family laws. I still remember that very moment when I had put her in front of a choice “If you choose your family over me I will leave you”.
And so I did….
It took me another 4 years of therapy to arrive to a point of saying to myself “Yes I am a homosexual…and it is not going away”.
It took me another 2 years to eventually let myself fall in love again…this time I knew what I was doing and why I was doing it…perhaps….
Today I met N. 
She is dying. Her organs are shutting down. One day or another she will probably leave this plane. Doctors haven’t given her much hope and time. She is selling her business that I was present when she started.
And she came to tell me so.
We talked about things done and memories shared. Many I had removed…
At a certain point I asked her to forgive me for the pain I caused her in leaving her. I said that although I loved her a lot I couldn’t stay in that situation anymore. It was a question of self-respect.
She said, “I know, I cared for you a lot and I got angry with you because you disappeared from my life. You didn’t even want my friendship”.
I said, “For years I did not want you as a friend. I wanted you as a lover. I didn’t care for you, I loved you and it took me time to get over it.”
She told me “ You will always remain for me my Maltese Goat. And next time we will meet again in another lifetime I shall remind you.”
That is the nearest she could arrive in this lifetime to tell me how much she cared for me. She never ever said I love you, yet I felt that love.
As I could feel her pain, a conflicting pain that she has always carried in her since I met her but could never do anything about it.
I could work on my pain and only the Universe knows how much I am still working on mine but I can’t work on hers.
We said goodbye fully knowing it might be our last in this lifetime…

So dearest N, in memory of that love, that made me grow into the woman I am now, this is my prayer for you:

I am sorry.
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Thank you.

Safe travels…


Your Maltese Goat.



The ring on the left is a reproduction of 13th century English ring carrying a garnet and a Chaucer's phrase saying " Go little ring to that same sweet heart that hath my hearth in her domain". The ring on the right is a beautiful Aquamarine. Both rings were given to me by N during our time together.