On Mess and Healing / Il Caos e la Via della Guarigione

Sometimes we just know that we have to look at the mess and go through it. There is nothing else we can do. Going back is just a question of suppression and of fermentation. Things will come back sooner or later, usually with more vigour. 

We all have our own expertise, our own brand of mess. We know it. Having the courage to look at it is already the start of a healing journey.

What is happening in the world is just a huge reflection of what is going on in each one of us. The world is going through a deep mess. A mess that has been festering and fermenting for long decades and centuries. Not just looking at it but also owning it is a start.

The world has its own healing journey that is made by each of our own single healing journeys.  

Neptune, the great dissolver and Chiron, the great healer, in the sign of Pisces, the healer of emotional and psychic level have been at it for a long time and will still be going on for a long time.

Pluto, the great transformer, in Capricorn, the master of the pragmatic functioning whole, has been slowly, surely and dramatically changing the world we live in.

Saturn, the great teacher, in Sagittarius the seeker and teacher of the truth, is having us to face dogmas, religions and philosophies that have thwarted with our natural identity.

Uranus, the shatterer of limits, in Aries, the pursuer of independence and freedom for one’s own identity, has been giving us a push to assert ourselves in our own personal identity and dignity.

Embarking on a healing journey is never easy. It needs a good dose of courage. We will get hurt and sometimes we can’t avoid that others will get hurt too.

But I personally think we owe it to ourselves and to all the world. What we heal inside ourselves will have a direct effect on the world because we are all connected.

As above so below, as within so without, as the Universe so the Soul.

Versione Italiana

Alcune delle volte sappiamo che non possiamo fare altro che guardare il caos in cui stiamo e passarci in mezzo. Andare in dietro è solo una questione di soppressione e fermentazione. Le cose soppresse normalmente tornano ed anche con rinnovato vigore.

Ognuno di noi ha il suo particolare marchio di caos. Lo sappiamo benissimo. Avere il coraggio di guardarlo è già un buon inizio sulla strada della guarigione.

Cosa succede nel mondo è solo una grande riflessione di quello che sta accadendo dentro ognuno di noi. Il mondo sta passando attraverso un gran bel caos. Un caos che si è putrefatto e fermentato per decenni e secoli. Non solo guardare il mondo, ma essere consapevoli di cosa sta succedendo, è un inizio.

Il mondo ha il suo percorso di guarigione, fatto dalla somma ed interazione di ognuna delle nostre storie di guarigione.

Nettuno, il grande dissolutore e Kirone, il grande guaritore, nel segno dei Pesci, il guaritore a livello emozionale e psichico, stanno chiamando tutti, da un bel pò, alla via della guarigione. 

Plutone, il grande trasformatore, in Capricorno, il maestro del mondo funzionale e pragmatico, sta lentamente ma permanentemente e drammaticamente cambiando il mondo in cui viviamo.

Saturno, il grande insegnate, in Sagittario, il cercatore ed insegnante della verità, ci sta facendo guardare in faccia i dogmi, le religioni e filosofie che per secoli hanno storpiato la nostra naturale identità.

Urano, il distruttore dei limiti, nel segno dell’ Ariete, l’inseguitore dell’indipendenza e la libertà per la personale identità, ci sta dando una mano per alzarci come individui e riprendere la nostra identità e dignità.

Iniziare un percorso di guarigione non è sempre facile. C’è bisogno di una grande dose di coraggio. Ci faremo del male e molte delle volte non riusciremo ad evitare di fare del male agli altri.

Ma io personalmente credo che prendere la responsabilità di guardarci dentro e cominciare la guarigione è un dovere prima di tutto verso di noi e verso tutto il mondo. Cosa noi guariamo dentro di noi avrà un effetto diretto sul mondo intero perché siamo tutti connessi.

Come sopra sotto, come dentro fuori, come l’Universo così l’Anima.

 Bisogna avere il caos dentro la vostra anima per fare nascere una stella danzante. Freidrich Nietzsche

Book Review: The Goddess and The Shaman

As in the pure style of the Goddess world where all is interconnected and nothing is separate, this book came when I needed it most. It came just as I was painfully surrendering to what I perceived as a call from the Goddess and preparing to quit my corporate job.

I read this book in that magical period in between eclipses where time as we perceive it does not follow “normal” rules and the incursions from the Elphame (the name given by the author to the Other World) are stronger and more frequent…if we are paying attention.

So this book was a bit like a manual that had an uncanny way to unfold just as I was reading about it in the book.

It was reassuring, comforting and encouraging to read Kent’s telling of her life in discovering the Goddess and then the ability to cross over in the Elphame. So was her description of the “ontological shock” that is “the mind’s struggle to reconcile and to integrate two diametrically opposed models of reality”. I recognised many such episodes in my life…and I was currently passing through one.

It was a pleasure reading her description of the “Western Magical Tradition” and her referring to it as the “lost shaman tradition of the West”. It felt like it was a reclaiming of our roots and our own land and occult traditions without always needing to go to the other side of the world to obtain a platform on which to allow ourselves to work in and with.

What I feel it is the gift of this book to the modern reader and Seeker, is the author’s weaving in together and blending once again the Western Magical Tradition and The Great Goddess. I have always a hard time explaining to others how, since I was a child, I felt that everything was interconnected and alive. Nothing was really dead or inanimate for me, not even a stone or a computer. It was amazing to read it in a book because it felt it gave me the permission to finally fully acknowledge this innate knowledge and not perceive it as something strange or “heretical” or “insane”.

And as Kent describes in this book, coming into personal contact with the Goddess changes radically one’s life. There is a shifting of values and life purpose and the alignment of the personal will with the Divine will, which is lived in the inner sanctity of oneself without trying to convince any one of anything. That all life’s events have a spiritual purpose, a sentient being  “aware and embodied small part of a greater spiritual Truth.”

I also feel that this book has contributed a very important understanding of “mental health” which I have always felt it was “truer” to me than the concept exposed by conventional medicine. That is looking at what “caused the shattering of the self in the first place” not just popping a pill in the patient’s mouth and that is the end of the story.

Kent brings case studies to support this theory. Case studies I loved reading, not only for the clinical details and sometimes “rawness” of the episodes but because of what emerged from her case studies. According to Kent, “psychotic", “schizophrenic” or commonly known as “mad” persons, who are condemned to live on pills that take their identity away, are actually people who have a heightened sense of the Other World and periodic incursions of the Elphame in their world and do not know how to deal with it. 

In other cases the malady has its origins in the “Other World”  and pieces of the soul has been lost. Through the tools of “magical psychology” Kent was able to help these persons to, not only start living a “normal” life, but also live more happily.

I am particularly grateful for the opportunity to have been given a free copy to review. It is a book I will cherish and re-read with earnest.

A book I highly recommend to those who are on the Goddess path, healing practitioners or simply those who are just curious to hear a different bell about the reality we think we live in.

Published in March 2016 by Llewellyn 

Olea Europea, Ancestral Healing & the Sun crossing over my Asc

There comes a time “when the knots come to the comb”. It is an Italian saying that can depict what I am going through.

My body, my wise body, two weeks ago blocked me and sent me on sick leave. My last sick leave goes back to exactly 10 years ago.

My homeopath gave me Olea Europea (the European Olive tree) at 30CH potency. I could feel things moving but I could not focalise exactly what was happening. It was there but it was in that liminal space where you can’t actually see it. Perhaps aided by the fact that the Sun was transiting my 12th house.

Just as the Sun crossed my Asc, the Olea Europea 200CH is delivered. I took one dose yesterday evening and one dose this morning.

And my mind keeps going back to my ancestors, to the blood and DNA I carry in me. To the conscious and unconscious believes I carry imprinted in my body and soul.  A bit of a Samhain feeling but on a very very personal level.

They say, that once Malta was covered with Olive trees and that Malta, Melita, at the time of the Roman Empire was known for its Olive oil and Honey.

I know there is an Olive tree that was planted in Malta at the time of the Roman Empire and it still produces olive oil.

I keep on imagining all my ancestors that come from the whole wide-spread Mediterranean sea basin. All the languages they spoke, all the faiths they held, all the wars they fought, perhaps even fighting each other on opposite ends. I keep on imaging the foods they ate, the cultures they lived, the knowledge they held.

I try to imagine their jobs and professions. Merchants, farmers, goat keepers, teachers, priests, slaves…Perhaps amongst them there were alchemists and seekers and perhaps keepers of ancient traditions.

I keep on imaging them all, sitting at one point in their lives, under the shades of an Olive tree and perhaps thinking about who would in the future carrying their lineage.

And perhaps in that illusion called Time we meet somewhere outside space, matter and time.

I can see us sitting with our backs on the trunk of the Olive Tree Spirit.

Olive Tree Spirit feels sturdy and wise. That kind of wisdom that comes from knowing that all passes but your essence remains true to itself. That generations come and go but a common denominator remains.

Olive Tree Spirit feels nurturing…that nurturing that comes from elements of the Earth weathering through every pore of one’s essence so to finally distill that quintessential energy in green alchemical gold.

I can see us all looking at each other, through eyes that have known many worlds, words and thoughts.

I can see us looking in each others’ eyes and see that common denominator, that golden thread that holds us all together in that matrix of family ties, lies, traditions and believes.

We have a lot of talking to do, perhaps even without words.

I know that my sickness and tiredness is here for a reason.

I know that Olive Tree Spirit will guide the ancestral healing that the time was ripe to do.

All I have to do is listen to the wind blowing through Its branches, the Sun glimmering through Its leaves and the warmth of Its trunk sustaining my tired back.

Blessed Be!

Setting My Intentions

Amongst all this Pain and Fear,

In all this perpetuating wave of Terror and Hatred,

I am plunging my feet firmly in the Ground.

I am opening my arms to the Sky.

I am the Atoms and Molecules that make me.

I am the Energy and Light that binds them together.

I am the Creator of Myself.

I am the Light that pulses through the galaxies.

I am setting my Intention, 

aligning all my Being and my Wholeness,

to become a Tuning Fork,

to Peace and Compassion,

to Love and Brotherhood of Humanity.

I am holding the space for Healing,

for Dis-ease to find its rest,

for Pain to find its Balm,

for Hatred to find its Compassion.

I am holding the space,

amplifying exponentially,

all the acts of Kindness,

all the gestures of Compassion,

all the acts of everyday Heroism,

that are never talked about.

I am amplifying the Human-ness,

and the God-ness in all of us.

I am choosing,

intentionally aligning,

with keeping my heart open,

my eyes vigilant,

and my spirit aware.

I am intentionally putting myself in the Light,

whilst dancing with the Darkness,

For I am the Co-Creator of my World.

I am intentionally holding a space,

for Healing to take place,

and the best of Humanity,

to stop this insane hatred race.

And I know I am not alone.

Please let us join forces.

Book Review: Sound Healing for Beginners

Music has a profound effect on me. It can make or break my day. Literally. So this book captivated my interest.

The book starts by describing what is sound from various points of views. From the point of view of a physician, physicist, psychiatrist to linguist, magickian, healer, shaman and vocalist. They all give different facets of what sound is.

The book bases its foundation on opening our awareness to sound, be in and conscious of sound, expanding our consciousness through sound and reaching far, riding the sound wave we choose to be carried on. Fascinating idea isn’t it?

The authors go further with saying that we are not passive recipients of sound, we can also alter the energy way of that sound by our awareness and that sound is an energetic nutrient. 

Sonic Transmutation is also an interesting concept of changing unwanted noise to wanted noise with huge benefits on health especially if we live in highly noise polluted environments. A concept I am working on.

The authors work a lot with breathing exercises which is the basis of all the exercises which will then be extensively illustrated in the book. Meditation through breathing, humming, toning and mantras reciting are all beautiful exercises to get in touch with the sound energy and slowly be enwrapped by its healing properties.

There is a lot of background of what is shamanism and how shamans have used sound to travel in between the worlds. There is also a detailed description of Brain Wave Rhythms and their effect on our brains.

I have experimented some of the exercises whilst reading the book and some of them had profound effect on me. They are not exercises that can be mastered in a couple of session. 

This book is more of a textbook for exercising consciously with sound every day, becoming a conscious sound rider until slowly we can learn to shift both the sounds we hear and those we make in a transformative healing energy.

Published by Llewellyn Publications on the 8th August 2015.

Something about Wounds

There is something painfully magical about wounds.

Whatever nature or origin,

they have a purpose.

In that messy, deep, raw wound

there lies profoundly buried the seed of healing.

Sometimes the seed grows rapidly and relief is soon found.

Sometimes the seed needs a cycle of nature's elements,

to nudge the germination,

with subsequent closure,

and scar as a reminder.

However there are wounds that somehow,

they will never stop bleeding,

or stop being mind shatteringly painful,

beyond any words

or gestures.

Only tears are allowed,

sometimes,

some days.

It is in that alchemical moment,

where tears meets silent haemorrhage,

winds of compassion and salty water

forges fiery metal,

and the eternal bleeding

becomes a sea

of silent awareness,

and the will to overcome.