Showing posts with label Neptune. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Neptune. Show all posts

Saturday, 23 July 2016

On Mess and Healing / Il Caos e la Via della Guarigione

Sometimes we just know that we have to look at the mess and go through it. There is nothing else we can do. Going back is just a question of suppression and of fermentation. Things will come back sooner or later, usually with more vigour. 

We all have our own expertise, our own brand of mess. We know it. Having the courage to look at it is already the start of a healing journey.

What is happening in the world is just a huge reflection of what is going on in each one of us. The world is going through a deep mess. A mess that has been festering and fermenting for long decades and centuries. Not just looking at it but also owning it is a start.

The world has its own healing journey that is made by each of our own single healing journeys.  

Neptune, the great dissolver and Chiron, the great healer, in the sign of Pisces, the healer of emotional and psychic level have been at it for a long time and will still be going on for a long time.

Pluto, the great transformer, in Capricorn, the master of the pragmatic functioning whole, has been slowly, surely and dramatically changing the world we live in.

Saturn, the great teacher, in Sagittarius the seeker and teacher of the truth, is having us to face dogmas, religions and philosophies that have thwarted with our natural identity.

Uranus, the shatterer of limits, in Aries, the pursuer of independence and freedom for one’s own identity, has been giving us a push to assert ourselves in our own personal identity and dignity.

Embarking on a healing journey is never easy. It needs a good dose of courage. We will get hurt and sometimes we can’t avoid that others will get hurt too.

But I personally think we owe it to ourselves and to all the world. What we heal inside ourselves will have a direct effect on the world because we are all connected.

As above so below, as within so without, as the Universe so the Soul.

Versione Italiana

Alcune delle volte sappiamo che non possiamo fare altro che guardare il caos in cui stiamo e passarci in mezzo. Andare in dietro è solo una questione di soppressione e fermentazione. Le cose soppresse normalmente tornano ed anche con rinnovato vigore.

Ognuno di noi ha il suo particolare marchio di caos. Lo sappiamo benissimo. Avere il coraggio di guardarlo è già un buon inizio sulla strada della guarigione.

Cosa succede nel mondo è solo una grande riflessione di quello che sta accadendo dentro ognuno di noi. Il mondo sta passando attraverso un gran bel caos. Un caos che si è putrefatto e fermentato per decenni e secoli. Non solo guardare il mondo, ma essere consapevoli di cosa sta succedendo, è un inizio.

Il mondo ha il suo percorso di guarigione, fatto dalla somma ed interazione di ognuna delle nostre storie di guarigione.

Nettuno, il grande dissolutore e Kirone, il grande guaritore, nel segno dei Pesci, il guaritore a livello emozionale e psichico, stanno chiamando tutti, da un bel pò, alla via della guarigione. 

Plutone, il grande trasformatore, in Capricorno, il maestro del mondo funzionale e pragmatico, sta lentamente ma permanentemente e drammaticamente cambiando il mondo in cui viviamo.

Saturno, il grande insegnate, in Sagittario, il cercatore ed insegnante della verità, ci sta facendo guardare in faccia i dogmi, le religioni e filosofie che per secoli hanno storpiato la nostra naturale identità.

Urano, il distruttore dei limiti, nel segno dell’ Ariete, l’inseguitore dell’indipendenza e la libertà per la personale identità, ci sta dando una mano per alzarci come individui e riprendere la nostra identità e dignità.

Iniziare un percorso di guarigione non è sempre facile. C’è bisogno di una grande dose di coraggio. Ci faremo del male e molte delle volte non riusciremo ad evitare di fare del male agli altri.

Ma io personalmente credo che prendere la responsabilità di guardarci dentro e cominciare la guarigione è un dovere prima di tutto verso di noi e verso tutto il mondo. Cosa noi guariamo dentro di noi avrà un effetto diretto sul mondo intero perché siamo tutti connessi.

Come sopra sotto, come dentro fuori, come l’Universo così l’Anima.


 Bisogna avere il caos dentro la vostra anima per fare nascere una stella danzante. Freidrich Nietzsche

Wednesday, 4 May 2016

Beltane and Freedom 2016


Beltane 2016 this year happens at the 5th May 2016 at 03:42 CED. 

It is now two weeks that I have left the corporate world. It was 17:25 when the aeroplane hit the runway to take off to leave Milan to Rome and precisely at that time the Sun had just entered Taurus.

Now the Sun is at nearly at 15 degrees Taurus, the mid point of the fixed Earth, Beltane. This is the first Beltane I am celebrating as in my new life.

In these last two weeks people have been repeatedly telling me “Now you are a free person”. The first thing one of my ex-heads, that day just after I signed the resignation was, “Now you are a free person”. And that made me think….Why before I wasn’t?

The day after my area ex-co-workers sent me a message saying….Good Morning to your first day of freedom…. We admire your courage.

I wanted to answer back: that freedom and courage have a price…an unfathomable price…but I did not. I think no one can understand the price each of us pays to be truly who one is. Something I had not the courage until lately.

And with that Uranus came to my mind…

The resignation of my ex-job is the story of my Uranus - Uranus opposition (and some other stuff as well). I had read and studied about the Uranus-Uranus opposition…something I have seen people pass through and take huge decisions in their lives…the so called mid-life crises. I thought I wouldn’t do such a huge transformation in my life…leaving the known for the unknown. I deemed I had not the courage those people had.
I remember saying to my mentor, Helen Tremeer: I can never leave my job when I have nothing secure on the other side….and yet here I am…

Mine started a few days before my 40th birthday, when I fell from my bicycle and broke my rib. From then on my life has started becoming a crescendo for my true identity, of breaking of bars that kept me jailed. (Not that now there aren’t any, but life is a continual evolution and revolution.)

Astrology came into play and it helped me keep sane when all felt hazy and I felt I was going mad…with frustration, pain, worry and rebellion.

Various persons came into my aid. When the student is ready, the master appears. And to my teachers, mentors and friends I would like to say, “THANK YOU”.

So today I want to celebrate and toast to all this odyssey up to now.

Beltane is always special to me, it always brings to fruition changes that have been seeding in my soul for a long time. Perhaps it is because of my Taurus Moon. I do not know. This year it happens with a Balsamic Moon...that sweet spot, that melting pot, between what is now past and the future that has yet to manifest.

So here to Uranus, for breaking the jails of my captivity, for being, as my teacher Ingrid Naiman says, the Messenger of the Spirit into Matter.

To Neptune, that is still making this journey such mystically foggy and making stillness a point of being.

To Pluto, for bringing that pain/s up to the surface, for the long overdue transformation and the acknowledgement of my own personal healing power.

And to my Taurus Moon…for showing me where I have been coming from in these various life-times and for showing so much patience with all the rest of the astrological pack.

By Eric Williams

(The track below is called Sweetness of the Earth by Anugama. It has been one of my most favourite tracks to calm myself down, stop from panicking (or vomiting) and meditate, long before I knew what I was doing was called shamanic journeying. This is also the track I was listening when that aeroplane hit the runway to freedom. The name of the track can’t be more Taurus!)

Blessed Beltane to you and yours!


Blessed Be!



Sunday, 18 October 2015

Where are you?

I am sorry,
I drove you away,
for cowardice,
for ignorance, 
for despair.

I am sorry, 
I was the one to betray you,
to slay you,
in the very essence of your being.

I am sorry, 
I did not see your mission,
violated your holy body,
spat on your Divine Feminine.

I am sorry, 
I drove you away,
forcing you in the lands of Hades,
leaving you there,
to aguish in horror
in disgrace,
in dispair.

I am sorry, 
I still have not,
the fearlessness you ask of me.

I am sorry,
I still stumble with doubt,
and hide myself,
behind my fears.

I am sorry I lost the thread of my life,
renounced upon my calling.

I am sorry that my terror is still greater than my courage.

I am sorry, where ever you are my Soul.

(gestated and written as Saturn conjunct my natal Neptune-Moon opposition, recalling when Pluto opposed my natal Moon in 1992)

This following is the video that inspired all of the above:


Where are you? 

Little girl with broken wings but full of hope.... 

Where are you? 

Wise women covered in wounds...... 

Where are you? 


Today is the day
I will not sit still and give in anymore 
Today I rise
I am bruised but I will get up and walk again
Today I rise 
I don’t care if you ignore my beauty
Today I rise
Through the alchemy of my darkest nights I heal and thrive
Today I rise 
I move through the world with confidence and grace
I open my eyes and I am ready to face
My wholeness as a woman and my limitless capacities 
I will walk my path with audacity
Today I rise

I reconnect with the many aspects of myself
I am in awe of the reality I can create
I am a healer 
I am a queen
A wise women - A wild woman
I will rise and beam 
I am a rebel 
I will wake up and fight
I am a mother and I am a child
I will no longer disguise my sadness and pain
I will no longer suffer and complain 

I am black and I am white 
There is no reason to hide

Where are you....

I call upon Kali 
To kiss me alive
I transform my anger into power
No more heartache or strive 

The world is missing what I am ready to give
My wisdom, My sweetness, My love 
And my hunger for peace

I weep with the trees and the rivers and the earth in distress 
I rise and shine and I am ready to go on my quest 

Today I rise 
Without doubt or hesitation 
Today I rise 
Without excuses –Without procrastination


Today I call upon my sisters to join
A movement of resoluteness and ....concern

Today is the day I rise and scream
Today I foresee the future of my dreams!
Today is my call to action............ I will fulfill my mission
Without further distraction. 

Today is the day! 
Today I will start 
To offer the world
The 
Wisdom of my heart.