Only
the Universe knows how grateful I am to be celebrating this day.
This
last year, especially the later half has been a sort of dark night of
the soul. I came in contact with even further darker sides of myself.
Dark
shadowy mysterious parts that have long claimed to be heard and given
attention to.
It
was the culmination of a nearly 12 year period.
I
suffered fractures both physically and mentally.
I
shall never forget the moment I fell from that bike on August 17th
2012 at around 11 am in Veluwe, Holland , amongst those beautiful
Pine trees that I had been seeing pictures of during my previous
meditation practice.
I hit
the asphalt with such a force that literally and metaphorically took
the breath out of my life and pressed the reset button, for all, in
a split second, to be irrevocably changed.
The
smashing of the perceived self.
The
temporary lost of physical strength and self awareness.
The
humility to ask for help.
The
continual stabbing pain that numbs the mind and destroyer of sleep.
The
lost of a spiritual mentor.
The
anger of being accused and misunderstood for things never done.
The
anger of being “betrayed” by the person I thought was
infallible and trusted blindfolded
The
loss of a second mother that helped me find my first.
The
finding of assistance from unexpected sources.
The
dawning awareness that my partner has always been there in all these
years silently sustaining me...awaiting for my “waking up”.
The
realization that at the end of the day my intuition is right.
That
there is a soft voice silently whispering images, sounds, thoughts,
feelings...all to flash a way to my soul intent becoming.
The
monumental step to acknowledge my desire for astrology and consequent
start of years of studying. The peace and alignment I felt the moment
I subscribed to the Faculty. The wonderful sense of purpose each
time I sit down to study.
I
bring all this and much more that can never be contained in words to
this Magical Winter Solstice 2012.
I
closed a chapter and starting a new one.
I
am grateful to all of you out there who have helped me through,
knowing and unknowingly.
Thank
you.
Blessed
Be!
2 comments:
I'm so sorry that I did not know about your fall. As you know, I don't get on Twitter much any more.
You mentioned a physical injury, I hope you are OK now.
Your year seems to have been one of personal growth. Just remember that everything that happens to us is what makes us who we are. And we are all wonderful people.
I miss you on G+.I hope that everything is healing both within and without. Be well and please keep in touch.
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